Adoption

The Focus on the Family broadcast today brought some thoughts to mind. Actually, questions. The program was exploring the way things were in 1968 by talking with a panel of people who were teenagers during that time. One of the ladies got heavily involved in drugs and prostitution but when she got pregnant decided to keep her son and be a single parent.

My mother put me up for adoption and I was adopted in 1970 at about a month old. The back of my birth record has details about my birth parents. Some of those details are fuzzy to me at the moment but I can go look them up. My adoptive mother is okay with me trying to find them (my one brother did find his birth mother to resolve that area of his life). I have wavered off (mostly) and on about trying to find out about them. I have some paperwork that I can fill out and send to the International Soundex Reunion Registry but something holds me back. My husband is against me looking (he doesn't want me to get hurt) but that isn't my reason.

Anyway, the radio program got me wondering what circumstances surrounded my conception. And of course this post brings more questions to mind. Have I waited to long? Do I have brothers and sisters? Are they good people? Does all this matter? Why stir things up? What's my heritage? What's my medical history? Are they looking for me? What if they aren't looking for me?

I'm not stressing about any of this but it feels good to get it out there.